p u s i l l a n i m o u s

I hate having to use colors for notes or homework. It just irritates me seeing how bright and colorful it is. He expects us to write a paragraph. with. different. colors. Four. FOUR. Just count it! That's the number of all the fingers on your hand minus one! (It's really not all that amazing, but it's Keyk who's speaking here)

...why does everyone else like colors in their notes? :/

Persona 1 remake trailer! It looks like a GOOD remake, too! I've never played this one before and am glad I didn't considering the...changes Atlus America made to the thing. I hear a lot of people prefer the director (?) of the first two Persona games over the new one, so I would LOVE to try it! I don't think the game targets the same audience as P3 or P4. I'm probably going to be terrible with the first-person navigation, but who cares!

If they remake P2, BOTH of them, I will be excited.

LOL PEOPLE. I don't think I'll EVER get used to 'em. Solo's done. Got dragged to RPing and playing chess. Magically. 'Cause things happen that way. Homework is being neglected. For socializing.

Wait, what?

EDIT
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One of the Riv players has just reminded me how much I like chess (even IF my family members like to beat me up at it.) But it was a fluke, I SWEAR. The other person kinda quit, which, like, NEVER HAPPENS with me. I bet I'll suck come rematch time.

Today was fun (I HUNG OUT WITH PEOPLE TODAY. IN REAL LIFE. SERIOUSLY) , even though I refused to finish my homework, lala. To bed!

Uggghhh....RPing is such a draining activity. I'll admit that I enjoyed myself though. I have to act wise because THAT'S THE KIND OF CHARACTER I APPED. DUDE WHAT. I guess the RPing made me feel less embarrassed from the more embarassing things that occurred today and the few days before. It keeps accumulating, and I want to smack myself so badly. but I haven't yet! Unless slapping myself counts, but that doesn't really hurt. It was fun, I enjoyed myself. I was just shoved into a large chatroom comprising of ten+ people. HAHAHAHA. Oy vey. Took me awhile to warm up to talking to that many people. For the most part I was going: AHHH PEOPLE RUUN. And warm welcomes actually intimidate me. I start thinking: OH GOSH I CAN'T LET THESE GUYS DOWN. Pffft, really. I'm so self conscious and quick to beat myself up for a small mistake, I don't know how I survive any social activity I engage in....hopefully the RP will help me break out of my shell a bit more. I hope it won't become a source of major procrastination though.

I have to sing my solo in practice tomorrow. Joy. And I have a quiz in PreCal that requires memorizing charts and crud on Wednesday, but I'd better start now. Uy. I wish I were more a visual learner.

I haven't felt this sleepy at 10:40 in a looooong time.

HAHA, I'm so sucked into Le Chevalier d'Eon it's not even funny. I've missed stories like these. I find myself laughing out loud at some points though...pffft, that DRESS. This guy is barely even close to the real Chevalier d'Eon, but the same could go to Robespierre (I laughed when he appeared. SERIOUSLY?! That's THE Robespierre?!) and all the other historical figures they've stuffed in there. It kinda....makes me laugh in the same way Dynasty Warriors does. D'Eon still reminds me Ramza with Alma characteristics, siscon and all! While watching, I find myself randomly thinking, Man, these guys must REEK. BO or perfumes or whatever whatchamawhosits they've got, it must REEK really badly! I think my nose would die if I was there. It doesn't help that there's a cool kid in there either. Leavemebe.

Also made my first post at the RP. My friend wasn't kidding when she said she'd attack me with, what, nine of her muses? Gee-whiz. I was drained by the end of that one. N-now I have to find a job and lodging. Oh noes.

Also played Okami! AMAZIIIING. I still suck at these kinds of games, but it's so much fun! I never knew drawing a straight line could be so hard!...curse you, Wiimote. I had a lot of fun through the first, errr, two hours that I played? Nothing like biting chickens and people and cutting fruit and drawing suns. Yeeeep. That's the life. No really, it's amazing. T^T Thank you, r4inbowvomit! I will listen to all of your orders because I am STILL IN SHOCK FROM THIS. REALLY.

Remember how I was complaining about APUSH tests? Now it's a paper and a stupid A.P. Bio project! Fun, fun, fun in the sun. Seriously. Best days of my life.

OK.

OOOK.

Well.
I...
tried out for a solo in choir today. While I sound better than I thought I would, it's, just, what. And yet what's worse is that I feel worse about joining the roleplay than doing this. Anyway. I got picked out to sing "Gloria" for a while, and my voice. cracked. UHH. Out of embarrassment I did start to cry, so I was all, "Uhh, heeey, can I use the bathroom? I mean, I'm kinda gross looking here." :D; Embarrassing. Really. That's not the solo part I tried out for. It was just an embarrassing point in my day. =3= I have a lot of difficulty remembering what notes we altos start on. Urk. First time attempting harmonizing!

I really want to be a part of the play our school is doing since it's by Moliere. I love his stuff--he's hilarious! But alas! I cannot! For I have much too much to do this darned friggin' year of death and why-the-heck-did-I-take-this-class nonsense.

Some Filipino guys started talking to me in Tagalog in a Goldilocks bakeshop. And I was all, oh snap. I answered their questions and offers to help me carry things mostly with an "OK lang po," which is just about the lamest response ever, and then at one point it was "Yung tatay ko," and at some points "Opo," etc. etc. Anyway, I don't know how bad I sounded as I know for a fact that I speak better than I write although I'm still pretty BAD, but it's over with. YAY.

Also! Le Chevalier D'Eon is an amazing anime! I want the boxset since it's a lot easier for me to grasp onto things when I can hear and understand what they're saying in other words I prefer the dub. Did you see that? A run-on! You can watch the two first eps of it on Funimation's site. The show really reminds me of FFT sometimes, except more French and more Renaissance (or is it the Enlightenment?)(this is called Keyk being stupid--it's the French Revolution, haha) than Middle Ages. The main character really reminds me of Ramza. in so, so many ways. Some which I will not mention. Moving on. I read a chapter of the manga, which is totally different but still interesting and amazing! I am still amazed that the writer for the anime, manga, and the novels is the same person. Wow! Talk about creative!

Also, Firo in Baccano! has the most amazing Brooklyn accent ever. Also on Funimation.

And I have a biig APUSH test tomorrow, but I have a lot of homework, and it's now 7:50, and I need to sleep by 11:00 lest I pass out in class again. Fun times, really..

I have this problem where when I feel like I've made a breakthrough in some kind of art,

I
Don't
Stop.

*facepalms*
Be it playing the violin, story making, drawing, style altering, writing even...I...can't stop myself. (HMM, DOESN'T THIS SOUND FAMILIAR.)

So today! I noticed that I have major problems with perspective and understanding depth, and I don't use proper guidelines.

That is. UNTIL NOW.

While perspective still makes my face wrinkle up like an old man's, I do understand depth a bit more! Most people seem to like using round shapes and curvy lines for guides, but me? I'm using polygons. On everything. I'll probably grow into the more curvy smooth style as I improve, but for now, I'm going to love my polygons. Thank you, How to Draw the MARVEL Way, you've saved me muchly. I thought that kind of technique would never work for me, but when I felt that I should try it, it made me very happy. But I never think my men will ever look as manly as yours...or as thick and muscly. My characters will forever lack the muscles and bones they need. Probably.

Of course, it's not as if my depth perception and drawing skills got perfect overnight. I just want to improve really quickly, and do my best so that I will improve really quickly. Although I do get those long lazy streaks, too. The violin is a victim of much of that especially since I can't tune the thing yet (EXCUSE), uy.

But darnit, these spikes always occur when there's a paper or test coming up soon. In this case, it's both. And they're both for APUSH, that class I just can't seem to do well in while everyone else does. And you have no idea how much I wish I could work on that comic of mine. I had a story spike a while ago, and so the story's changed quite a bit. I might have to change and add a few pages (does this mean I have to draw added pages in my older style..?).
*slaps self* Test. Paper. APUSH. HELLOO?

I read a few chapters of The Extraordinary Adventures of Arsene Lupin by Maurice Leblanc, and DANG IT'S REALLY FUN. I got a few giggles from when Sherlock Holmes meets Arsene Lupin as Holmes was staring the poor guy down. Reading ebooks since the last time I went to a bookstore, they didn't have any Lupin books. I hope this translation I'm currently reading isn't bad...I mean, it flows well enough (minus a few typos here and there), but that doesn't necessarily mean it's a good translation. At least it's understandable! We actually have an intimidating, gilded, large red book with five books of Sherlock Holmes inside of it, but it's still in shrink wrap, so I have yet to touch it. It's that kind of book you feel belongs in a mansion library! I feel like I'd need to wash my hands every time I flip a page lest I damage the pages with my finger oil!...I'm better off finding a paperback series for these...or more ebooks.

I totally blame this on my reading more Detective Conan. That thing is a mix of Inspector Gadget, maybe some Pink Panther even, what with the clumsy detectives and all, Sherlock Holmes, and Arsene Lupin (only for the Kaito KID chapters and the Magic Kaito series) plus light high school romance fluff. IT'S SO CUTE although it took awhile for me to like it. I love the retro art style! The anime theme songs are often made of such typical 90's pop-ness, it's amazing.

I look forward to reading more of Lupin and starting Sherlock Holmes when I finally have time to settle down and NOT read SCHOOL RELATED books (which are by no means BAD...well, the romance ones tend to be). I wish I had money to buy books. Those buggers are expensive! I could probably steal some dramatic lines from 'em if I ever make a demo reel, too, hehe. I did make a character with obvious influences from both sources (that's how I roll!), but, uh, here's to hoping he doesn't come off as a total Detective Conan rip-off, though he might. Oh, well!

Oh, yes; because I cannot say this enough, and it's fun to annoy her by repeating the same thing over and over again except this time I can use tacky visuals:
THANK YOU, r4inbowvomit!!!
You were able to make this crappy day a whole lot better! You're still cute to me. 8D

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Y'know, I should be studying for the SAT I have on Saturday, but I really don't want to. :/

Before I say more, THANK YOU GUYS FOR THE B-DAY WISHES! They made me happy, but I somehow can't find the right words to reply (didn't this happen my last birthday, too?). For now, an overall thank you, and hoping I remember later, a reply to each. I am such a fail commenter.

So here I was done with all the really bad finals, but you see, the simple finals on Friday also need studying for. Have ! studied them at all? NOPE. Current time: 12:02 AM! I bet you can guess a chunk of the reason I didn't.

1) As you can see, I AM ONLINE.
2) I drew.
3) I have read more than half of Breakfast of Champions by Kurt Vonnegut I bought last weekend. I have never fangirled over an author since I was a kid. _{Mostly because my parents wanted us to use the library more than buy, but because of the time limit libraries have, I didn't read much as a kid.} I am also happy that my sis finally read Slaughter-house Five by the same author. It was one of the most convincing anti-war books I've read, to be honest. I love this guy, even if his drawings of assholes look more like asterisks. I love all of the symbols he uses--it's just--HE'S A GENIUS.
4) I napped.

I am not functioning right as told by the many typos (which have been fixed, I think?) and weird sentence structures within this journal entry. And yet I must study. And I will. Soon.
....I want to see my sis play more P4. There are a lot of P2 references in here, I think..? Kanji just gets cuter after each event. |D

That last one wasn't exactly as proper of an entry as I planned it to be. Oh, well.

Hahaha, the stickliness of my art style is getting more and more obvious, but it's still animu looking and all that jazz. It'll probably stay that way. >_>;

Oh, hey wait. You have FINALS next week, right? That means you SHOULDN'T be drawing so much, right? RIGHT? So MAYBE you should finish your homework and get some study guide crud for that ONE CLASS done, YES?

W-well, YES, I should. B-but. Oh.

It's near 10:50. I have to be up in about 6.5 hours.
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Aaagh, poodles.

I read some Silent Hill stuff while getting distracted the other day, and I've been feeling extremely uncomfortable lately. I'm so bad at this kind of stuff. *facepalms* Why and HOW do people manage to play these things.