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Uggghhh....RPing is such a draining activity. I'll admit that I enjoyed myself though. I have to act wise because THAT'S THE KIND OF CHARACTER I APPED. DUDE WHAT. I guess the RPing made me feel less embarrassed from the more embarassing things that occurred today and the few days before. It keeps accumulating, and I want to smack myself so badly. but I haven't yet! Unless slapping myself counts, but that doesn't really hurt. It was fun, I enjoyed myself. I was just shoved into a large chatroom comprising of ten+ people. HAHAHAHA. Oy vey. Took me awhile to warm up to talking to that many people. For the most part I was going: AHHH PEOPLE RUUN. And warm welcomes actually intimidate me. I start thinking: OH GOSH I CAN'T LET THESE GUYS DOWN. Pffft, really. I'm so self conscious and quick to beat myself up for a small mistake, I don't know how I survive any social activity I engage in....hopefully the RP will help me break out of my shell a bit more. I hope it won't become a source of major procrastination though.

I have to sing my solo in practice tomorrow. Joy. And I have a quiz in PreCal that requires memorizing charts and crud on Wednesday, but I'd better start now. Uy. I wish I were more a visual learner.

I haven't felt this sleepy at 10:40 in a looooong time.