p u s i l l a n i m o u s

Puking sounds great right now. Yet not. I want to puke and not deal with the acid eroding my esophagus deal. My sleeping schedule is so bad that this has been happening everyday this whole week. Uggghhh. I'm going to wait for that YouTube channel to post the non-Miyazaki directed eps. Those six episodes have totally made me want to watch more. Studying? Didn't go anywhere. *headdesks* I have violin lessons tomorrow. I didn't practice an inch even though I'm on spring break. I hope I won't have a headache in the morning. And I hope I wake up!

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Break's spiraling down to a close. It also means my tests of death are catching up with me. I don't know how I'll survive. Panicky? Inside, yes, outside, I'm just tired. I wish I could get more chapters done. Nothing is sticking. I don't know why. Normally I can buckle down and just take in the info for, what, six hours straight, but this year, it's been really difficult. And this is the year I take A.P. classes. I wish I could say I feel like I've been getting smarter throughout high school, but, rather, it feels like my brain capacity is lessening every year.

I am so good at sticking my foot into my mouth, it isn't even funny. I hope I'm the only one who thinks I'm doing this though. Gahh, I get embarrassed so darn easily.

Oh. I am strangely attracted to this song. The name is translated "Poetry of the Gods," if I did my research correctly, and I think the song is by "姫神" HIMEKAMI? It's in ancient Japanese, I think...not sure where the lyrics come from. I also did a lot of martial arts research because I was researching which weapon to give Corey. Miao dao seemed best, and it fits since Corey really likes plants. It's both two-handed and one-handed, and it's cool. Here, proof: TA-DUM. They're friggin' long! I wish I had studied martial arts when I was younger. I probably wouldn't be so darn wobbly and scared to leave the house if I did. XD; Filipino martial arts are also really interesting! You should go look it up. |D Also getting ideas for the darn 1930's AU fighting game. It's so hard to assign weapons to each person! I still need to finalize the plot for it, too, arghh. It's worse trying to assign ethnicities to characters that don't have Earth-based races. Hoo, boy. I wish I were as productive as Lily-san!

I am now making a somewhat better ending to CF...except at the same time it's not better. Well, it leaves on a somewhat positive note...? I emphasize the somewhat. >_>;;

Currently disliking studying.

Eden of the East? just watched it with my sis, and WOW. I am impressed. They even got actors that can speak English and do a pretty good job acting! Whoohoo! I liked the character designs, too. I can tell they just took photos of LAX(What was I thinking?) the airport and filtered them, but I don't care. They poked fun at us Americans and I LOVED IT. The OP and ED animations made me cry tears of joy (not really, but they were awesome!).

Another distraction in the middle of my busy weeks!

Ahh, geez.

Went and did more self-personality analysis via Myers-Briggs tests and results. I got INTP again, but I read about it, and a lot of it just doesn't match. That's the same way I felt with ISTP and INTJ and INFP, which are other results I've received in the past. I did research into other types and found one that seemed to really match. I'm not too sure about my acting on my values a lot, but I suppose I've been acting more as of late. I've certainly been bothered by my not being able to in the past. And now, I did challenge myself with acting (which I wanted to do when I was three) and got my parents to let me play the violin, whom were a pain to convince, let me tell you.

What personality type?
This type would be INFJ.

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Since most of you have known me much longer than anyone else (aside from my immediate family), do you think this type matches me? Trust me; if you've taken the time to read at least five of my emo entries, you have a better idea than most others about my life. I can never get this result on those personality tests (not that those are the most accurate things in the world), but I do feel like this is closest to my actual personality.

OK.
SO.
All I have to do now is finish my "request classes for next year" stuff and study my butt off. UGH. I want to flush my English teacher down the toilet. So. Badly.

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Oh, wait, there's still math homework. *headdesks*

My nails are a mess of multiple crayon shavings and smudged wax, and I have created an equally messy picture. You want to see traditional media from me? Then here you have it. 100% pencil sketch with crayons. No ruler used, so ignore the not straight-lines and imperfect perspective. This was an idea for the first chapter cover of Imagination Fall. Have a Dusk-y in his somewhat tacky coat. My sister's computer is now working, so I can now occasionally steal her scanner.
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I think I've fallen for all of the April Fool's jokes I've seen so far on lj. ....Hey. Hey, shush! I'm totally not gullible. D8 Really.

I put off some artsy project that was assigned a week ago to the last possible day, which is, uh, TODAY. Yeah. I'm so smart, I know. My sis is playing 80's music, which is pretty darn awesome. |DD I miss this stuff. It doesn't help that my English teacher made us compare "Synchronicity II" by Sting and Yeat's "The Second Coming." Ooh, them 80's music.

Oggi ho la nausea e ho mal di testa! I've been pretty nauseous lately. It is not pleasant. My headaches are getting worse and more frequent, yada yada blah! My innards still like making random pains that are annoying and uncomfortable. Darnit, I'm tired. In two weeks, I'll finally have spring break, but I'll be using a lot of time studying for finals and A.P. tests. Shoot me. I have no idea how I'm going to survive these.

Before I graduate from high school, I aspire to have better social skills. I've come to realize that the happy somewhat loud me is actually me, me, while the silent one is really not me, me. Being me, me is embarrassing and hard, but I will do my best! I need to get rid of all of this self-conscious nonsense somehow. It's going overboard.

EDIT: I want to draw my webcomic so badly--I want to finish this chapter! Finish the next! Get SOMEWHERE in the story! I-I have to use up my drawing energy for this assignment though. Boo. D|

The week looks somewhat more restful than the others. I still have a project due Wednesday and had a quiz today, but it's not too bad compared to the other weeks. I just want to sleep, but if I do, I'm going to get a headache. >_>;; April as a whole will make me want to shoot at my feet though. Finals for two of my classes (the harder ones, uy) and AP tests. *shudders*

I'm tying a lot of loose ends in Centrifugal Force together! The title is actually a lot more relevant than it was when I first made it! Hurrah! The antagonist and protagonist jobs kept switching among the characters, but I think I have it down now. XD;; Hans is officially a book-freak. Vio has more development! Sadly, Knight doesn't. XD;; I also totally threw Mirror's (from Imagination Fall) old personality out the window. Now she's just...uh, wow. Totally different. Her backstory is still relatively the same, but she's not so boring (to me) anymore. I can't say I've made her anymore likable though. ^^;

I've decided to do plays again next school year. I'm caught between going to an all boy's school to do a Shakespeare play or doing Macbeth at my own school. Mind you, I am not a Shakespeare know-it-all (if anything, I'm a know-it-not), and, as popular as that play is, I have no idea what it's about. 8DD;; I don't know what the play at the other school is, but I do know I'd have to memorize a Shakespearean sonnet as an audition and perform it. Is it bad that I find sonnets hilarious? I do like Shakespeare's sonnets over most others, but even still, they're so...cheesy. It's the same feeling I get when I read Romeo and Juliet...just...no. I'm also going to be doing a lot of English stuff next year just so I can improve my horridly lame vocab and have an excuse to read. For choosing English classes, I don't know if I'm going to take Lit. of War and L.A. Noir and Mystery, or Lit. of War with Shakespeare...I could always stress myself out with papers and reading byt aking multiple English classes a semester. Papers, somehow, I'm okay with, but reading? Pfft, I'm a terrible reader. XD; Then again, if I'm doing plays, my access to a computer will be severely limited.

Female hormones are messing with my brain again. When I start off a day P.O.'d, I know what's coming. >_>;;

So here I was going, "Finally. The quarter's over. I finally have a break week. Only two tests. That's not too bad." I tried being optimistic, um.

But, oooohhh, no.

English teacher gave us a pop quiz today (how on earth do you expect us to memorize a part of the script, doofus?) and an essay that is due tomorrow. He wasn't even here today. He needs to be flushed down a toilet. NOW. I have a precal quiz come Wednesday as well as a Spanish test. And, ooooh, boy, does the MC and FRQ for APUSH look a lot of fun right now. Okay, now that I've typed it up, it doesn't seem that bad. But...ugh, I feel like I've been doing nothing but papers, projects, and tests for the last four or five weeks. @_@;.....On the bright side, A.P. Bio seems pretty chill this week.

I hope.

On a different note, my hair got a lot of attention today. Eek, people. I expected more people to be upset that I lopped off my long-ish hair. I only got one. D8