p u s i l l a n i m o u s

Drew something silly today and yesterday!
( Colorful yet blandly colored! )
Ahahaha, that is but a chunk of the CF cast. And everyone's hair color is so natural, right? Tell me about it. Hans's and Kai's faces are lopsided, what the heck is a bg, and ffff, the coloring. But it was fun to do! I like drawing emotions on people's faces--I think I like that most about drawing in an anime style: exaggerated emotions. Zarenth looks like an emo ghost. XD;

Busy weeks are approaching and more. :/ If anyone remembers the mystery crossover I considered doing a million years ago, it looks like we'll do it! Just waiting for the third Layton game to come out here and to start reading Umineko!

( The reason for the header. )

Golly-whiz, I want winter break now. But the end of that'll mean the beginning of finals and the beginning of a brand new hellish senior semester. Woo boy, I can't wait for that to happen.

Unfortunately, I'm still too tired to go back to my regular replying days. I still have a lot on my plate, and--geez--it ain't getting any smaller.

I just want to throw it all in the air and go: Screw this.

Calc quiz 'round the corner. Anywhere caught up? Have I even understood anything the past few days? Not at all. Done one of the art reqs for my app, but don't know when to get the other done. Not to mention I still don't understand my sister's crit. Now I have this nagging feeling in the back of my head that the art teacher will reject it or it won't get accepted by the app people. Still have them projects to do, too. Speaking of apps I still have those college apps to get goin' on. If I hadn't gotten so sick, I would be so much more caught up with everything.

Also, my computer? Still out of commission.

I am unhappy. But I wish I were so much more apathetic. :/ I'm just not having fun, and nothing feels worth it. I'm not down in the dumps--though it sometimes feels that way--I'm not angry--though I get irritated easily nowadays--I'm not tired physically, but my mind seems to be. Just...What am I doing? Really.

It's already Saturday. Dadgum it.

Good grief. I've just made a ridiculously large blunder concerning a college app that was due, uh, today. FFFFF, crap, my counselor's going to chew me up for this big time. Aahh, well,if this one doesn't work out, hopefully something will, haha. Work keeps piling up and I just don't know how to distribute my time! Got nauseous and got a headache 'cause of it, and when I get that worked up, it means I oughta vent, so here it is. Friggin' apps. and friggin' careless blunders of mine.

Watched Cencoroll today! I know a good number of people are disappointed with it, and I can't blame them. The trailer's coloring was much better, its animation was smoother and more exciting, the trailer stuff didn't even appear in the actual thing...BUT! It was a fun ride, and, boy, I really had a kick watching it. If this turns into a full blown series, count me in! Everything in the movie was low-key, which wasn't what I was expecting, but it happened to be my favorite aspect of the whole thing. It gave it a very, er, natural feel--as natural as a film having big white blobs with huge eyes and even larger mouths can be--but, no, really, the whole premise and concept was easy to take in and accept, I think. Sir Creepo Shuu wasn't AS creepo as I expected, but he's still an awesome character to me. Yuki wins my favorite character in the movie, hands down. Tetsu is still pretty cool. I'm normally not that into the apathetic and constantly irritable characters, but I liked Tetsu. I kinda wish we got to see more of Kei, but, well, what can we do. I recommend this to just about anyone who wants a short and simple yet fun ride.

And it's pretty much done by one guy (Atsuya Uki) singlehandedly! Come on, that's gotta be a pretty good incentive to watch it! And if you like Vocaloid stuff, it might help to know ryo did the music here (no Vocaloids used here though, haha).

Also? Hotel Dusk 2? Pretty please with a cherry on top.

I got a low A- on my calc quiz this time, yaay! Hopefully I can keep my grade up with the next ones too. The problems just get longer and looonger. I'm a bit upset at having a few points docked off one of my writing assignments for Supreme Court just because it was RIGHT AFTER he wrote "You write well!" on my last paper. I don't mind the grade, I just feel like I've let him down. D: Sad day.

Aaaaanyhoo, I've been up to a lot of stuff and I am pretty busy, in high school terms. Holidays and clubs and projects and COLLEGE APPS and the like. Ugh. I really want to go to Chapman U, but my parents are pretty against it. I see where they're coming from and all, and I don't want to impose especially since my siblings both go to an expensive college. It just irks me that I can't go because they went to an expensive college. But, well, that's pretty unfair to put the blame on them. I just don't like feeling stuck in a rut. It's the environment that really got to me there. I wouldn't be motivated enough in a large campus with large classes...and they were so friendly there. I just got that feeling that they really WANT to help you. I didn't get that at public schools or even when I sat in my sister's class. But if not that, then maybe Pitzer or Occidental. MY chances of getting in to those is a lot lower though. Just...a small private college--I'd love that. Too bad they're so expensive, hah.

Aaand It's been well over a month and my computer is still sick since my brother is just that busy. Sucks, but what can you do. I also got back into Pokemon after dressing up as Gary Oak for Halloween with my sis and friends. I'm progressing in the Pearl game you gave to me, Jamu! 8DD;; MY MAGIKARP EVOLVED SO I HAVE A GYARADOS NOW YEAAAAHHH AND A MISDREAVUS AND AN ONIIIXXX AND A ZUBAT AND A GASTLY--OHBOYOHBOYOHBOY! *cough*

My party isn't biased.

Really.

Back from that lovely Kairos retreat.
Back to reality.
Back to make-up work and college apps and please tell me I'm not going to die.

Hoooo-boy.
I need to relearn how to do math and type and live life in general.

Sad, sad day.

It's that time of month again and it's MOOD SWING CENTRAL.

It's great.




Really.
Headaches included.
My ingrown toenails are acting up. You totally needed to know that.

I have a paper to write. And a bag to fill up.
Oh joy.

Continuing development of CF and IF is what's keeping me sane atm. <3
And I really would do replies, but, honestly, replying is very time consuming for me. They'll be dusting for a little while longer, aaack.

Found two black widows in my room. Still young. Pretty sure some momma black widow laid her egg sac in my room (or at least had one hatched) while I was on the road trip. Lost one of them while it ran away from a failed capture attempt. :/ Got to look for it again. The other is right next to me, also failed to catch, but stayed in web for lack of anywhere else to go. Will attempt to capture again later.

I just want to get them out before they start making babies in my room. I would really not appreciate that. And, yes, I'm still an arachnophobe; it's bad enough that they're here in the first place. D: The ground spiders that skitter across the floor I'm fine with, but, sorry, black widows can get preeetty big. They are so hard to catch though, gah.

Asked to do cartoons for the school newspaper since my sister did it too. I'm just. I don't even know.

...I lost a notebook. Iiiiii've never done that before. It's not an especially note-filled notebook, but, uh, I do have a quiz on Wednesday. Good thing it's not too hard to do the notes again, but, geez, what a pain. :/ Extra work for me. Fun times. I have absolutely noooo idea where it could've gone either. My room has drastically changed as of yesterday, and I didn't see any notebooks hanging around my classrooms, so...duhrr? Unless it was stolen by someone, but...why? ^^a

I'm not freaking out over it (it was only fifteen cents, so I don't feel too bad about it), it's just...seriously, what a pain. What I am freaking out over is the calc quiz I have tomorrow (first quiz dropped my grade to below 90%--in my terms, omg I've lost over 10% of my grade! D8--and turned in assignments have been dropping my grade further, so I really have to do well this quiz to create a cushion in case I bomb some other quiz in the near future--no tests, unfortunately...or fortunately, maybe.). And getting over 2000 on an upcoming SAT. Bagh, school.

Relative visited, we ate out. at a sit-down restaurant. Whoo. Two tests tomorrow (both memorization based, too) and bunches of homework. Just my luck. :/ I'm gonna post some thoughts about some things around here. Can't let my writing go rusty while I don't have a formal English class to keep me sharp.

( book rant )

I feel like I'm the only one who isn't entirely fond of Sound Horizon's newer albums. Now, I'm not the biggest fan of Aramary's vocals (I love her narration and voice acting though!), but it's the albums where she's the main vocalist that I like best. The Thanatos and Lost albums are my favorites, (Elysion's all right and kinda up there, too, but mostly because that was the album that introduced me to them) which I guess are the more...reserved of SH's works. It's not as if I dislike the newer ones; they're just not music I can stand to listen to for hours on end. I love how Thanatos and Lost were put together. And I've got a better grasp on Lost with translations (Thanatos is hard to find; :( ), which only made me love it more.

Ugh, it's only been a few weeks in, and I've already lost more than 10% of my grade in calc. D: I'd better do well on the next quiz! Gotta keep my GPA up and all.