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It's kind of a letdown knowing that my parents missed something I worked so hard on for them to see. I was actually confident for once in my life. I wanted to show them that I could do this, that I was able to do something other than what my siblings had already done. It's selfish of me to think this way. My parents don't see me as being any higher than my siblings. I suck compared to them. I wanted to show them that I was capable of being myself and pursuing what I want to, but they missed it anyway. They don't seem to mind much either. I expect too much out of things sometimes.

I can't do my homework like this. Ugh. On the brighter side though, I'm glad that friends can be really supportive and helpful sometimes. I feel bad about accepting kindness, but that's just me.

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[jamuko.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

Wish I could have been there to see you =)

It's normal to feel "behind" your siblings... you are younger than them, after all. But you are by no means inferior to them, and I wish you didn't have to feel that way.

Follow your heart - you *can* be yourself and I'm proud of you for pursuing it. Sometimes it might take a while for others to see or understand your efforts, and I know it's disappointing. But now *you* know you can do it, and you should use that as motivation to keep on trying and show the world. =) Your parents will come around eventually, and they will be so proud of you.