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It's kind of a letdown knowing that my parents missed something I worked so hard on for them to see. I was actually confident for once in my life. I wanted to show them that I could do this, that I was able to do something other than what my siblings had already done. It's selfish of me to think this way. My parents don't see me as being any higher than my siblings. I suck compared to them. I wanted to show them that I was capable of being myself and pursuing what I want to, but they missed it anyway. They don't seem to mind much either. I expect too much out of things sometimes.

I can't do my homework like this. Ugh. On the brighter side though, I'm glad that friends can be really supportive and helpful sometimes. I feel bad about accepting kindness, but that's just me.