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Jul. 28th, 2009 01:45 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
keykWhoo, insomnia, yeeeaaaahhh. I'm pretty sure it's from the all dreaded females before that thing starts stuff. Good grief. I swear I have the worst cases of PMS among those people I hang out with. Mood dropping far down for no apparent reason, really bad insomnia, heightened frequency of headaches,really bad hunger pangs (hard since I'm a vegetarian now; there's a big lack of food)--I may not have the worst cramps there are, but PMS SUCKS.
...and now I'm looking things up on PMS and PMDD. Which I shouldn't be. It's almost 2:00 AM.
Just before this, I was reading up on copyright laws. It was fairly distracting and interesting even though I was surprisingly aware (considering I normally am not saddaysadday) of most of what I'd read up on. I kept it up for several hours. Wow.
Before that, I watched my sis finish Ape Escape 3 (SPEECTARRRR), finished K-ON with sibs (I...I really liked it), knitted (I made my stitches too tight while using really crummy yarn, so it was really hard), attempted to animate (note the first word of this phrase), and now I'm drawing.
Ahh, say, does this mean I have PMDD rather than PMS?
.......oh, darn, it looks like I do. Gah, wait, what am I doing diagnosing myself at a time like this?!
...and now I'm looking things up on PMS and PMDD. Which I shouldn't be. It's almost 2:00 AM.
Just before this, I was reading up on copyright laws. It was fairly distracting and interesting even though I was surprisingly aware (considering I normally am not saddaysadday) of most of what I'd read up on. I kept it up for several hours. Wow.
Before that, I watched my sis finish Ape Escape 3 (SPEECTARRRR), finished K-ON with sibs (I...I really liked it), knitted (I made my stitches too tight while using really crummy yarn, so it was really hard), attempted to animate (note the first word of this phrase), and now I'm drawing.
Ahh, say, does this mean I have PMDD rather than PMS?
.......oh, darn, it looks like I do. Gah, wait, what am I doing diagnosing myself at a time like this?!
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Date: 2009-07-29 02:32 am (UTC)*runs off into a corner of shame*
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Date: 2009-08-01 07:17 am (UTC)I will bookmark that site since I rally should keep track of my periods. It makes my docs annoyed when I say I don't know. XD I actually get that, too. ^^; Mine is almost always brown though, if that's weird. (Yay, TMI! As long as I ain't seeing it, I'm good. XD;)I get large splotches of brown a lot--it's only every other or so period that I get some red, or it's brown for awhile, and then red. I think that's just leftover or clotted stuff (ew), so I don't think it's a big problem. :D; I thought I poo-ed my pants when I had my first one so I was all WHAT THE--. XD;;;
As for irregularity, I think it's mostly hormonal imbalance? @_@; I DON'T think it's anything permanent (I'm not 100% sure though T_T;), so don't panic!...and, yeah, tell your doctor. For all the health problems I complain about, I only go to the doctor for my annual checkup (which my parents drag me to), and I don't tell them about my irregular period or too much of anything else (except scoliosis and my butt prob; one is school-told, the other I needed to prevent from getting too irritated @_@;;) either, haha. XD;;
Paper robes! I was totally WHAT the first time they asked me to put on just a paper robe! XD; They shoved me into a dinky closet-y thing, and told me to put on this thin...THING. I put it on wrong, so I didn't cover up...very well. XD; That was for my first x-ray ever, so I was pretty scared. The second time, they forgot to give me the apron thing that protects the reproductive area from the x-rays. They made me lay down on a metal table, which was kind of uncomfortable and...awkward. ^^; I'm still not comfortable doing either...I'm also half worrying someone will steal my clothes or something, haha...XD;;; For your ribs...I think it'd be good to mention it, but if they offer an x-ray, you can casually refuse...? XD;; If this is the first time you're going in four years, I think it's time to 'fess up! Ah, do you have a kind of dent in your chest area? Pectus excavatum? (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pectus_excavatum) I kind of doubt it, or if it is, it sounds relatively minor, so it might not be too big deal after all? XD;;;;
I cry really easily, so I usually attributed the crying for things I usually don't to that. I hadn't thought of it that way before, but yeah, I guess it is nice! *__*
It doesn't seem like I'm anemic, since my blood pressure is actually pretty high. It's a bit weird since I get all of these symptoms of anemia and people with low blood pressure. ^^; My dad says it's due to a lack of hemoglobin, but I've yet to look into it. I need vitamin B12 supplements though. XD Potassium...that rings a bell--we were talking about bananas once!...and fried Filipino bananas (how much potassium would there still be if you fried it though..?)!
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Date: 2009-08-01 07:18 am (UTC)For parody games, I wanted to make a Katamari one, an Ape Escape one, and a Brave Fencer Musashi one (from what I can remember--I feel like t here's more @_@) using my sis's and my original characters. XD; Some companies apparently do get bothered by it--at least that's what it said in the e-mail response they gave someone. Some companies also program the system they made for the game, so that could also be a problem. It's just kind of iffy turf, but Capcom LOVES its fans (so I heard), so I don't think they'd mind if you made one! :D
Oh, man, gee, 20 years? :/ I agree, they ARE harsh. And, that teen couple? GEEZ--seriously? D: That's harsh. That bites that they're on the sex offenders list now. They're...teenagers, like you said! I hear you on the CP thing. I hadn't realized how harsh the law is with this stuff! Owners of it sure get punished steeply, huh. T_T; The makers are the ones who should be getting punished, I agree.
I wasn't aware that marijuana was like that at all! I'm still being fed the DRUGS ARE BAAAD stuff, so this is news to me! XD Say, isn't marijuana being considered something that can be medically prescribed now? It's name is still pretty tainted, so I'm not too sure.
Open-mindedness took awhile for me to come by, too. But it's great to know so many open-minded people out there! *__* THEY DO EXIST! which makes me very happy. |D I just wish there were more out there. ^^;
Oh, yeah! The statue of David! In LA, there's this house with a BUNCH of David statues in the front yard, and I heard the owner's gotten quite a few complaints for it! When I was younger, I always turned away and thought it rather vulgar, but now I don't. Must suck to be that owner (as much as I don't mind though...I still wouldn't put tens of them in my front yard XD). As artists, we love the human body (though the innards are still things I run from XD;;;;)! Yeah!
......I would buy your novel any day. |Db
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Date: 2009-08-02 06:19 pm (UTC)The site is good~ you can have it remind you by email in case you forget to mark it, too. XD Though my problem is that when it "reminds" me, my period hasn't actually started yet ;_;
Hahaha!! Poor K XDD when you thought you poo'd your pants. I remember I was worried for a while back then too because of getting random whitish or clearish discharge when it wasn't monthly-time, I thought maybe I had gotten an STD somehow even though I hadn't done anything @_@;; like from some rare occurrence like a toilet seat, or maybe my parents passed it down and never told me?? XD But then I learned that's just normal.... orz
Yeah, I'm sure I'm probably fine, but I just get that small little nagging worry when I've never had it checked or anything. o.<
I also tried to use a tampon for the first time ever a couple days ago. ._. I...... couldn't do it. OTZ It's just so scary, I feel like it's gonna hurt so bad when I try to stick it in. T_T;;; I'm so scared of gynecologist now. ;_; Though I guess it might be less sensitive there if I go when it's not period-time, I dunno. My body is not very.. welcoming to that sort of thing. T_T;;;;
I hate paper robes. ToT I've only done it once, for a physical where they just looked at my whole body. x_X Not for x-rays or anything. That was also the time when I thought girls were supposed to shave.. THERE, the same as shaving your legs, and I normally didn't because it didn't matter if nobody saw.. but since I was going to be seen by the doctor, I was ashamed to be a lazy non-shaver and shaved it all bare, thinking that was what you're always supposed to do. I later realized that actually probably made me look a lot more questionable OTZ
There was another time where they gave me one and left, and I wasn't sure what to do with it, so when they came back I was still clothed XD and then they were like "meh don't worry about it then" XDD
I've seen that chest thing on wiki before. I dunno if that's what I have or not ToT the example pic there is really scary, but that's labeled as a "severe case" so I dunno if a minor case would be like mine. Though it sounded like on wiki, that condition is where the sternum is sunken, where on mine it's like.. the sternum seems alright I think, but right below it, the left half of the ribcage dips in weird and pokes out a bit lower. So it's kind of a ~ shape instead of a normal convex shape like my right side. It's not hugely obvious but it's easy to see if I suck in my gut (and look like a starving child XD ). I also notice my skin there right under the breast, on the sunken rib part, always looks reddish and kinda strained with the blood vessels showing through or something like that. I doubt it's a problem but it looks kinda weird o_O like I'm an old lady or something. ;_;
Overall, I doubt it's any big problem since it hasn't caused me any pain or discomfort, recently at least. If that stuff in the past is related to it, it's a little troubling, but I guess now that I'm no longer in PE it doesn't matter XD and it's not such a huge deformity that it'd cause me psychological torment like that one paragraph on the wiki. ;-; but it is a little annoying, since it makes it easy to see my ribs if you look at my skin, and I always see people criticizing anyone whose ribs show and say it's disgusting and anorexic looking and etc. D: and I'm trying to someday work up the guts to go to a pool or beach again! I stopped going years ago because I got scared to be seen in public with a swimsuit. ^^; (not because of this at all, just because I was shy about people seeing my body in general) I think bikinis are cute but I've never had the guts to wear one and I wanna get over it! ;-; It's tough because it feels so naked and exposing but I guess it's just something you gotta jump in and get used to.
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Date: 2009-08-08 11:06 pm (UTC)Hahaha, I actually thought the same thing with the discharge. XD;;; I tend to think about rare toilet seat disease exchange stuff, too, unlikely as they are. ^^;
My cousins gave me a run-down on tampons (since I'm scared of them, too). If it hurts, you're putting it in wrong! XD They say to move it around until you find the place where it can go in without hurting? I dunno, never tried it myself, but my other female cousins say the same thing. I'm sure gynecologists are pretty understanding. I mean...I don't know of too many females who WOULDN'T feel nervous to go to a gyn, so...XD;; Don't feel to bad!
You shaved it?! I've never shaved before, so...XD; I hope you don't mind my finding that amusing! Oh, Jamuko.
As for your ribs...it seems like a minor deformity, but I don't think it'd hurt to ask? If it were me I would just go MEH IT'S MINOR ANYWAY and move on with life. 8DD;;;
With bikinis, I just feel uncomfortable because they often look loose to me? XD;;; I dunno. I just get worried for no reason, haha. I prefer one-pieces myself (and I'd need to get in better shape before I even try XDD). But there's nothing to be ashamed of! @o@ you can do it!
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Date: 2009-08-10 03:05 am (UTC)Shaving, er, yeah....... XD I never did before that but I dunno, I guess I was never told if you were supposed to do that or not, so I guess I assumed so since you shave other pubic hair like armpits and legs >.> but I was lazy! I didn't shave my legs either, I just hid them under pants. ^^; I'm trying to get in better habits about that though because I don't like feeling scared if anyone would see my legs somehow or something.
Anyway yeah.. feel free to be amused at that story XD; I'm amused at it myself. XD (poor, confused, naive Jamuko..) it's horrible since it probably made it look like I was sexually active to the doc, and he had to ask me twice to make sure I wasn't lying when I said I wasn't. ;___; I was like wtf, I just wanna play Pokemon ;_;
As for ribs.. yeah... MEH IT'S MINOR ANYWAY is basically what I've been doing all this time XD; I do that for pretty much everything so I'm starting to wonder if I might have overlooked something that might have actually mattered. XD I have a really "ah well, I'm sure it's fine~" mentality which has gotten me into some trouble at times ^^;
Bikinis.. l-loose? ;__; I never thought of that! I guess it'd be scary if you think a wave might knock it off or something XDD oh dear. I never heard of that happening before though, so maybe it's just a mental thing. For me, the biggest obstacle is just being seen so bare ._. even regular swimsuits have that problem for me though. I seriously don't think I've worn a single swimsuit ever since I hit puberty just because of that. ^^; I was actually terrified of being forced to when I was a camp counselor, but I managed to avoid it. ._.;
But, I was someone so shy of my body since then that I always hid it under clothing as much as possible, constantly wearing coats and baggy pants and stuff because I felt nice and hidden. ^-^; I finally got over that though, and don't feel so weird about anyone seeing me wearing more fitting clothing, but I still haven't quite passed the hurdles of wearing shorts, shirts that bare the shoulders or have a deeper cut neck, or swimsuits. I managed to wear skirts on occasion when I could also wear my cute tall socks!! *-* I love awesome socks, I dunno why. But, I only really feel comfortable wearing something like that when I'm around Alex, or at a place where people wear unusual clothing already like a convention.
.....I want a sukumizu ._.
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Date: 2009-08-11 12:17 am (UTC)My parents tell me not to shave 'cause it'll be a big pain later on, so I should just hide them all the time. ^^; If it makes you feel better, I thought you were supposed to shave there, too, but I didn't since I don't shave. I thought I was being really gross though. XD;; And what's wrong with awesome socks? Awesome socks are awesome! *__*
Yeah, I'm not comfortable in swimsuits either. ;__; I always need to wear shorts or a shirt or something else with the swimsuit for me to feel somewhat comfortable. I think you'd look cute in a sukumizu or a bikini though! D: Go, go!
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Date: 2009-08-12 01:24 am (UTC)W..wait.. shaving being a pain later on? ;___; That sounds scary, what goes wrong about it? I used to not do it even though my parents never told me anything like that, but it was just because I was lazy mostly. I already took too long in the shower. ^^; Then one time my mom forced me to wear shorts to school and I was too embarrassed to tell her that the reason I didn't want to was because I didn't shave, and then I was traumatized in school by being so ashamed with my unshaven legs showing right out there OTZ I'm really pale and my hair is kinda dark so it shows easily. ._.
I thought I was being really gross by not doing it too. XD I guess that's why I thought I better do it for the doc. orz Now, as far as I can tell, some people do it and some don't, and some just trim it, and it's just up to each person I guess o_O
I find that with shaving anything though, the more you do it, the less annoying it is. I had a hard time starting because it took a really long time and always irritated my pores, and they would get red and a lot of my hairs would get ingrown and it was all bad. >o< But now, when I shave pretty regularly, I guess my skin is getting accustomed to it, because it's a lot easier to do now than it was before and my skin doesn't seem to react so badly anymore. I think using moisturizing body wash helps too. It's still kinda hard to shave the whole armpit without cutting myself though x_x;
Awesome socks are indeed awesome!! *_* I went through a period of being extra obsessed with thigh-highs, knee-highs, and other tall socks, so I have a whole bunch of them XD I love them, but it's annoying in summer when it's hot and you need a pair of socks and all your clean ones are tall and hot! They also make me feel more comfortable to try wearing skirts though, since I feel more covered up even though I'm not really. (Well.. kinda XD )
I also have a bit of a panty obsession. ;___; It's kind of embarrassing, but I always want to go look at the cute panties they have at the store. XDD Stripes and cute designs and.. I dunno ;__; I don't like those weird lacy and er.. "slutty" looking ones though XD I also want to look at cute bras sometimes too. My best ones are actually from the kids' section, which is kind of.. questionable to be exploring around XD But they're cute and actually fit me tons better than any normal bras I've found >.< and some have a cute latch thing in front instead of the annoying one in back, so it's much easier to put on! I think it's intended so girls can learn how to wear them but I like them that way too. ;-;
...Am I weird? ;_; I just think they're cute, so I like these even though they go under my clothes where people can't see anyway. XD
Extra strange since I used to not care one bit about clothes of any kind. The hidden clothes-liker inside Jamuko, what? ;_;
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Date: 2009-08-18 08:06 pm (UTC)I...REALLY like those uber preppy men's socks. T_T; I like golfer clothes, I DUNNO. I don't have any of my own, but they're SO COOL. I also like those cute patterned knee socks though mine are...falling apart, HAHA. And for the skirts, SAME HERE! I hate how socks aren't considered formal. ;_; I feel so bare wearing dresses.
You're not weird! I think that's really cute, actually! I liked my kids bras, but, uh, yeah, they were given away since my breasts don't fit in them anymore. Dang hormones. XDD;; They have a latch thing? *__* Do want. Lace is itchy and uncomfortable...and I don't get those transparent bras. @_@;
....Anime character designs probably got me more into clothing...actually. XD;;;;;;;;;;
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Date: 2009-08-19 12:23 am (UTC)Hmm.. I have heard that some hair grows back thicker if you pluck it out, like eyebrow hair I think..? ?_? I dunno if that's just an urban legend or not though. XDD I never heard that with shaving legs. Mine have definitely gotten lighter and easier to work with after shaving them more often. ^^; The only problem is my sensitive pores, argh. I really want to figure out how to stop those for good.
Hehee! Golf clothes >X33 I do have a strange liking for things like argyle pattern. I found some argyle socks in the grocery store for $1 one time and bought them immediately. XDD I liked the colors on those too, black with red and gray and white I think :3
I also kind of have a liking of some gothic lolita fashion..... ;__; even though I normally hate super frilly stuff and things. I dunno! XD I think I'm just mesmerized by how poofy the skirts/dresses are. ;-; Makes me wanna wear one and floof it around. XD If it weren't for the fact that I'd have almost nowhere to wear it, I would have gotten one by now. ;-; I've seen some pretty cute stuff on ebay, but it's not exactly cheap.
Kids' bras.. strangely.. I never had when I was actually a kid. ;__; I'm so small, I actually didn't wear bras at all for a long time. ^^; Though I often wore undershirt tanktop type things instead, it was mostly just because I was embarrassed to not wear anything since I figured you were supposed to. I didn't really NEED it for any reason. ^^; I could still even get away without wearing bras (*cough*andstilldosometimeswhenI'mlazy*COUGH* ) because I don't actually need any support, but I wear them anyway because they er.. cover up and provide a smooth shape over the whole area ^-^;; (I also learned the hard way that some shirt materials are um.. painful on your.. SENSITIVE THINGS after a while if you're not wearing one ^^;; regular t-shirts are okay but yeah, the coverup thing. =x )
I sadly learned that I hate bras with wires in them :< since I by no means need any sort of wire support, it just ends up being uncomfortable with that thing pressed against me. I'm sad because I got some bras like that that I thought were really cute, too. ;-; It's a bit hard to find cute bras with no wire in them, but that's where the kids' section comes in handy. XDD (They're cheaper too! I think they were like 8 bucks each! )
...WHY AM I RAMBLING ABOUT BRAS XDD
Panties are really the cutest, but I dunno what more to say about them right now. XD Except that I hate being paranoid during that time of month because I don't want to stain any cute panties ;__; so I try to wear my crappiest ones during that time but then I'm embarrassed to have a set of unwanted panties just for that purpose. XD Maybe I should just find a bunch of good ones that are solid black for that time. I'd feel safer then.
Hahaha.... ditto on the anime character designs thing. XDD That's what did it for me too. I know I definitely got into the striped thigh highs and stuff because of that. ;-; And pleated skirts... and a track jacket... and hoodies-- no wait, I always loved hoodies regardless. XD And HAIRPINS! >w< So cute~
Basically anything cute and moe in anime pictures makes me end up wanting it for real. ;-; I think it's really cute when they wear a short skirt but it's with a big hoodie flopping over most of it. X3
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Date: 2009-08-22 11:08 pm (UTC)Argyle? Argyle! So that's what it's called! Wow, that's pretty cheap for socks! D: But, yeah, I love those socks. ;__; I think they're adorable (everyone thinks I have an old man's taste when it comes to fashion, HAHA). I really love newspaper boy caps or whatever old man hats there are. Every time I see an old man it in, I think they're adorable. And their knitted vests! ;__; I...love old men's clothing, yeaaah.
Whoa, wow, yeah! I've actually wanted to wear goth loli clothes, too! Even...maid's clothing! XDD;; I have a friend who often designs and makes these things, and they look so cool! ;__; I wouldn't wear it out in the open, but I'd love to try it anyway!...and design them. XD They're so wonderfully tacky I just want to try it out sometime!
I'M JEALOUS. D8 I didn't like bras as a kid, and...I still don't. DDDDX I wish I could pass off without one (I think it's awesome you can, HAH!) since I've forgotten to wear them in the past. XD;;;;; I use cheap Asian rip-off bras, so I don't think I've used any with wire in them...have I? XD;; But then again, all my bras are old and, uh, too...small for me. XD; I should really get new ones! It's not like anything shows...usually, but it's hard to breathe! ^^;
I get paranoid about wearing new panties around that time, since I've, uh...dirtied them more often than once. >_>; I tend to...have a lot. I used to have a pair of black ones, but I dunno where those went. Lost in the laundry or something. Sad day.
Pleated skirts are so cute! ;_; (Why do I get the feeling I find fetishy clothing cute? HMMM.) Striped socks are so adorable! I don't often wear hoodies (I'm a big fan of buttons), but I think they look cool on other people! Yes! I love it when they have a short skirt and a big hoodie! So cute...but if I ever did that, I'd accomodate by wearing a long skirt and an even longer hoodie. HAHAHAHA.