Much less emo-ing this time around
Aug. 28th, 2008 09:04 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
keykMy siblings aren't here since they're at USC still; I don't share a school with one of them anymore. I've been sleeping earlier (that'll change as workload increases no doubt), and since I have a room to myself, as long as my fan is cooperating, I can do my work with less distractions. I'm kind of forcing myself to think more positively. I'm still not completely sane since I hold a LOT of conversations with my imaginary friends to keep me....sane, wow that sounded oxymoronic.
I'm probably going to get Cs this year, and I'm hoping that won't step on my college possibilities (the majority of you are/have been in college, right? This school just keeps pushing, so I can't really find a nice response from it. Did your high schools push you really hard to, uh, NOT get Cs? But oh, darn, I can't get into Calc without at least a B in PreCalc), so I'm going to try to accept them and just keep doing what I need to and TRY to improve, and if I don't, I'll TRY not to let it get me down. Again, the majority of my support comes from my imaginary friends. I'm probably going to be too overwhelmed to do plays this year. What with how early I wake up and how late I get back home, it's been hard to keep up a good schedule. I've been working ahead, studying ahead, and doing as much as I can possibly do before 12 AM. I get about 5 to 7 hours of sleep a night, and hopefully my brain can file information quick enough in that time span.
I miss singing. I miss acting. I want to learn how to play the violin. I should practice playing the piano. I miss drawing my story (it'll be really delayed this time around. I don't have time for too many distractions anymore. Sucks, I really wanted to ink them soon.). I don't talk to my friends as often anymore since I'm really pushing myself to work. That's something I'm afraid of. This is about the only lasting (it looks at least) bonds I've ever had. I was pretty much friendless once I got into high school, but I have about three I can really call my friends now. I'll get really mad at myself if the A.P. Bio's test's grade gets my teacher to ask me to leave the class, but I'll do my best to settle with what I get. I'm going to hammer this information into my mind. I've been studying for three days continuously. Then there's PreCalc which is simpler (It's only lessons 1 and 2), so hopefully it won't be too difficult this time around.
Back to re-studying bio.
I'm probably going to get Cs this year, and I'm hoping that won't step on my college possibilities (the majority of you are/have been in college, right? This school just keeps pushing, so I can't really find a nice response from it. Did your high schools push you really hard to, uh, NOT get Cs? But oh, darn, I can't get into Calc without at least a B in PreCalc), so I'm going to try to accept them and just keep doing what I need to and TRY to improve, and if I don't, I'll TRY not to let it get me down. Again, the majority of my support comes from my imaginary friends. I'm probably going to be too overwhelmed to do plays this year. What with how early I wake up and how late I get back home, it's been hard to keep up a good schedule. I've been working ahead, studying ahead, and doing as much as I can possibly do before 12 AM. I get about 5 to 7 hours of sleep a night, and hopefully my brain can file information quick enough in that time span.
I miss singing. I miss acting. I want to learn how to play the violin. I should practice playing the piano. I miss drawing my story (it'll be really delayed this time around. I don't have time for too many distractions anymore. Sucks, I really wanted to ink them soon.). I don't talk to my friends as often anymore since I'm really pushing myself to work. That's something I'm afraid of. This is about the only lasting (it looks at least) bonds I've ever had. I was pretty much friendless once I got into high school, but I have about three I can really call my friends now. I'll get really mad at myself if the A.P. Bio's test's grade gets my teacher to ask me to leave the class, but I'll do my best to settle with what I get. I'm going to hammer this information into my mind. I've been studying for three days continuously. Then there's PreCalc which is simpler (It's only lessons 1 and 2), so hopefully it won't be too difficult this time around.
Back to re-studying bio.
