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Hi all... ...
Yeah... I finally got a new icon...we're all so proud, aren't we (sarcasm)?
I'm friggin tired of school...2 years...of pretty much being a total loner. It's hard to communicate with anyone. I'm tired of it. I would move, but, our very strict yet very good math teacher is there, so I want to learn. We three, Pompi, Jeff, and me, Keyk, are all competitive. I'm the least competitive, but nevertheless, I'm going to stay here. When Pompi (my sister) said she was going to beat Jeff (my brother), my parents turned to me. I simply said, "I can only to bad." I still believe that. I can't find anything good about me at all...
(yeah yeah...screw indenting)I'm obbsessed with Houshin Engi...I haven't been exposed to too many anime or manga, so I have pretty bad taste right now. Haha...does this journal give an odd aura or what?
Anyway...I love Taikoubou...he's been dominating my notebooks. He probably hates me now. Oh well. That's what everyone thinks about me (or so I think) anyway. My journal hasn't gotten a single comment yet. I think it's really weird...*sigh*
Stupid school. They think media is all cool (I think it stinks...I mean actors, movies, etc.) and they think I'm an idiot. Ask me a famous person, I'll say, "Who's that?" ...if it's a historical person, the chances of me knowing may be a little higher, BUT nevertheless, I am indeed clueless.
I do nothing, I look down, I cry inside, but RARELY does anyone come to ask how I'm doing...it wouldn't matter though. I'd simply lie...which is a bad thing. I'd say that it was nothing, but to avoid making it a total lie, I'd say, "It was nothing important." What does it matter anymore?..this...school. Many people don't even act kind to others anymore...they seem to have no feelings...cuss...hurt...and ignore those in pain (I'm talking about myself...yeah...ha ha). If I had the chance, and had enough courage, I'd ask everyone, "What am I to you?" ...I don't believe that chance will come. I've been made shy by my class...unable to do anything in front of them. Many of you know the "online me" which is completely different from the "home and school me".
Internet...the few places that gives me a bit of happiness. Well, since the real me and online me are totally different, I can ask you, "What am I to you?"
I don't know...at all. I know I'm idiotic, but I can't help it. It's difficult to concentrate in anything. So few people I have actually met have bothred to care about...me (I know I'm confusing myself with the grammar uses of "I" and "you" so please excuse that). If you could help me in my current life, I would truly be grateful. Anyone who has been nice to me or anyone in general (yes, even the ones who're mean to me) I care for. I've always tried to be nice to everyone...but it doesn't always work. I feel so alone in my life. As other people live worse lives than I, I feel bad about the way I am. How is it...that I...matter..? Even if my school wants us to have confidence, I have gained none. Because...I feel inside...and no matter how many people say they do...I feel like no one cares about me. ... ... ...I'm ranting again. Yes, my annoying rants. I know...you probably hate how I am always complaining like this, but, for so long...since...preschool, I've never had more than 3 true friends in real life...
... ... ... ...I really need to do my homework now. Bye.
Yeah... I finally got a new icon...we're all so proud, aren't we (sarcasm)?
I'm friggin tired of school...2 years...of pretty much being a total loner. It's hard to communicate with anyone. I'm tired of it. I would move, but, our very strict yet very good math teacher is there, so I want to learn. We three, Pompi, Jeff, and me, Keyk, are all competitive. I'm the least competitive, but nevertheless, I'm going to stay here. When Pompi (my sister) said she was going to beat Jeff (my brother), my parents turned to me. I simply said, "I can only to bad." I still believe that. I can't find anything good about me at all...
(yeah yeah...screw indenting)I'm obbsessed with Houshin Engi...I haven't been exposed to too many anime or manga, so I have pretty bad taste right now. Haha...does this journal give an odd aura or what?
Anyway...I love Taikoubou...he's been dominating my notebooks. He probably hates me now. Oh well. That's what everyone thinks about me (or so I think) anyway. My journal hasn't gotten a single comment yet. I think it's really weird...*sigh*
Stupid school. They think media is all cool (I think it stinks...I mean actors, movies, etc.) and they think I'm an idiot. Ask me a famous person, I'll say, "Who's that?" ...if it's a historical person, the chances of me knowing may be a little higher, BUT nevertheless, I am indeed clueless.
I do nothing, I look down, I cry inside, but RARELY does anyone come to ask how I'm doing...it wouldn't matter though. I'd simply lie...which is a bad thing. I'd say that it was nothing, but to avoid making it a total lie, I'd say, "It was nothing important." What does it matter anymore?..this...school. Many people don't even act kind to others anymore...they seem to have no feelings...cuss...hurt...and ignore those in pain (I'm talking about myself...yeah...ha ha). If I had the chance, and had enough courage, I'd ask everyone, "What am I to you?" ...I don't believe that chance will come. I've been made shy by my class...unable to do anything in front of them. Many of you know the "online me" which is completely different from the "home and school me".
Internet...the few places that gives me a bit of happiness. Well, since the real me and online me are totally different, I can ask you, "What am I to you?"
I don't know...at all. I know I'm idiotic, but I can't help it. It's difficult to concentrate in anything. So few people I have actually met have bothred to care about...me (I know I'm confusing myself with the grammar uses of "I" and "you" so please excuse that). If you could help me in my current life, I would truly be grateful. Anyone who has been nice to me or anyone in general (yes, even the ones who're mean to me) I care for. I've always tried to be nice to everyone...but it doesn't always work. I feel so alone in my life. As other people live worse lives than I, I feel bad about the way I am. How is it...that I...matter..? Even if my school wants us to have confidence, I have gained none. Because...I feel inside...and no matter how many people say they do...I feel like no one cares about me. ... ... ...I'm ranting again. Yes, my annoying rants. I know...you probably hate how I am always complaining like this, but, for so long...since...preschool, I've never had more than 3 true friends in real life...
... ... ... ...I really need to do my homework now. Bye.
